Hold my silly putty, I'm goin in.

Time to rant.
The past few days have been…horrific.
I’m on my period, so though I’m comfortable enough with my weight, the extra 5 pounds of bloat are making me realize it’s time to eat better. Biking alone isn’t dropping the weight.
My mom bought 3 cookies, 3 filet o fish, 3 cheese burgers and 3 fries from McDonalds when I specifically asked for nothing. She leaves this shit in the fridge when she goes off to work. I swear to God the next time she buys me that shit it’s going into the trash.
She rubs in my face the fact that she can eat anything and stay thin, and the fact that she has a job and I don’t.

Onto the next one.
I asked for a tool 3 times in two weeks. Nothing.
So I went and got it. Then I’m “invading privacy” and “stealing”, because I gave it back. What happens when I steal and lie? Nothing.

I’ve had an infection for months. I asked my doctor about the new dog and allergies, but he says it’s the dry summer air and CIGARETTE SMOKE.
My mom swears she can’t quit because of my father and I. Last time she tried, she went emotionally and verbally bat shit and blames us for her failure.
She refuses to use patches or anything else to help her, swears the only way out is by quitting cold turkey which she’s tried way too many times. The worse my infection the more she smokes around me.

I’m using air purifiers but she turns them off.

Next one. She doesn’t want me biking on memorial day weekend because people will be drinking and may drive badly. I refuse to stay in this house on my birthday. Speaking of birthdays, she doesn’t want me giving my dad a father’s day card because I didn’t get her a mother’s day card. She also doesn’t want to do anything for my birthday because of my lack of interest in celebrating holidays. Karma, I guess. I don’t mind it going two ways.

Last xmas I actually gave gifts despite my better judgement.
She wanted “mamma mia” and repeated that through the month or two. That alone makes you want to buy it and shove it down her throat. Then she says she’ll buy it, since nobody else will. She didn’t. I didn’t. Nobody bought her her beloved movie. I won’t be spending next xmas here. I’m going to learn from my mistakes.
xmas means nothing. All of my gifts were things I bought or knew about. There’s no family. No celebration.

umarazaoparaviver:

Forever a Unicorn. No one is majestic enough to ride me.

OH MY GOD. THAT COMMENT.

^^^^^ THE COMMENT IS WIN!!!

And I’m too majestic to ride you.

(Source: suicidalvampire, via khiroz)

You never feel more alone in the world then a cold, rainy night where the only living thing in the world that seems to love you unconditionally is a couple of dogs.

And when you’re depressed, everything feels like this dark, cold night.
There’s so much in my head going on right now but I’m too drained to rant.

im-just-awkward-little-haylie:

herblife:

vansjunkie:

haha oh tumblr….

the match.com for lesbians.

lmfao

ahaha omg. 

Oh my.

(Source: imthegayfriend)